The hurt builds up inside me until I can't stand it anymore. Then I have to cut to let it out.

I hurt myself today
to see if I still feel.
I focused on the pain,
the only thing that's real.
Tried to kill it all  away
but I remember everything.
What have I become,
my sweetest friend,
everyone I know goes away in the end.
I wear this crown of thorns
upon my liar's chair.
Full of broken thoughts
I can not repair.
Beneath the stains of time,
the feelings disappear.
You are someone else,
I am still right here.
If I could start again,
a million miles away,
I would keep myself,
I would find a way.
  - Johnny Cash - Hurt -